Even though this blog post isn’t coming right at midnight, Happy New Year everyone.
I spent my New Year doing something I never thought I would do: step out of my comfort zone. I had the opportunity to attend a party, which was a first for me. Of course I took the necessary precautions to protect myself against the virus, before anyone decides to ask.
Did I have fun?
Yes and no. I say yes, because the experience will help me with my writing and I had an opportunity to be a young adult. I say no, because crowds. I absolutely hate too many people in one space, so I was mentally freaking out the entire time. Social anxiety for you.
But it wasn’t the party that made the night memorable for me.
It was one person. I don’t know if this makes sense, but I have to step out of my comfort zone when I’m with him, but I don’t feel uncomfortable doing it. He doesn’t judge me. We spoke about things that I’ve never been able to say to other people. And I didn’t find myself shying away from being who I was. I didn’t try to hide or be more than what I was just so I could impress him. I could be authentic. I could talk about the world in a candid way and he understood. I could talk about spirituality and the lesson’s I’m beginning to learn; he connected with me. We were able to exchange stories and gain knowledge from each other. I found a true friend that night.
I never thought I would find somebody who would make me feel that way because I always seem to surround myself with people who aren’t able to be authentic around me. I’m not able to be honest with them and they’re not able to be honest with me.
But now things are changing. I put it out in the universe that I wanted to build more authentic friendships and now they’re coming to me, slowly but surely. I’m starting to experience more in my life. Maybe that’s what life is all about. It’s the small moments that matter; the ones that are most memorable.
I guess the main message of this post is to say that sometimes you can surprise yourself when you step out of your comfort zone. You never know what can happen.
What did you guys do for 2021? Feel free to share in the comments.