We all know how 2020 has gone. It’s been a complete shit show the entire time. I know a lot of people are skeptical about what 2021 will bring and if it’ll be any better than it’s counterpart.
Some days I find myself wondering too. Even though 2020 wasn’t completely fucked on my end, a lot of things did change for me, both good and bad. I’m ending this year in a different state than I thought I would. Every plan I had has completely shifted and I can’t say I’m sad about it.
A lot of my goals for 2021 center around finding myself. I’ve spent so much time giving myself up to other people that I haven’t had the time to explore myself. I actually find it strange to be on my own again because I’m so used to having someone around or dealing with the drama that comes with young relationships. But with that, you run the risk of losing yourself or even pushing yourself away in order to make room for someone else.
I’m tired of that.
2020 has been filled with that. And although I learned a lot of lessons, it’s time to make room for me.
My main goals for 2021 is to grow spiritually. I want to take the time to heal from a lot of the pain I’ve gone through and learn more about who I am. I plan on reading more books about spirituality so I can gain a better insight about life and people. Currently I’m reading The Seat Of The Soul by Gary Zukav and it’s been an enlightening experience. That may be the first book I review on this blog whenever I finish it.
I also want to expand on my business. If you didn’t already know, I own a candle business called Poetic Candles. I started it during quarantine and I’ve learned a lot through the process so my main goal is to just get more people to discover it. If you want to give it a follow, go to @poetic.candles on Instagram. I’m also going to get over my fear of Tik Tok and try posting on there too. But my anxiety about showing myself on the internet is a discussion for another day.
After that I just want to keep writing. It’s been a struggle because of my need to please other people when in reality, writing is a personal journey. Not everything I write has to be published or shared onto the internet and I have to remind myself of that. I’ve started to lose the spark as I’ve grown older and published books and I want to get back to that. This blog is kind of the first step because I can kind of be myself on here, even if no one is watching.
If you feel like sharing, what are your goals for the New Year? And if you don’t have any, that’s cool too. The fact you survived 2020 is an accomplishment. Be proud of yourself.